My Teacher Wish List

  

 I completed my first semester as a teacher…. WOW is all I have to say!

I wish I could of put a camera on myself so everyone could take part of the experience I faced as my first semester of being a teacher. I don't think people outside of the field get it… teaching is one heck of a profession {Can I get an AMEN?!}. I under estimated the amount of energy and work it took to be a "real" teacher… Mind you, I had years of practicum experience and student teaching…it's absolutely not the same!

The exhaustion for putting ever ounce of your mind, heart, and body into what you are doing is killer.

Throughout my first five months of teaching I have been broken a part as a person, and put back together again.  I cried a lot in the five months…. Heck, I cried more in one week, than in an entire year! Not to sound like wimp, but I was given a challenging class (no that's not to sound like a complainer either). I think I've seen every possible misbehavior in the 5 months, than most…. You'd be a surprised what a first grader is capable of.

I have had six year olds curse, throw chairs, punch one another, tell me I am stupid, kick me, break my items on purpose…. and more. But at the end of the five months, all I have to say is, thank you.

Thanks to my students, I have grown as an educator and as a person. Sometimes the hardest thing to do is to let go of your ego {In Frozen terms, "LET IT GO! LET IT GO!}. I had to put my ego aside, and think of what was best for my students, and with that I had to ask for help. My amazing staff understood what I was facing, and supported me fully through the growing pains. 

After asking for help things have gotten better. I stopped questioning if education was really for me, and started to realize this is exactly where I need to be. I stopped getting a stomachache coming to school from the nerves of "what will happen to me today". I stopped crying, which is great because it's not my thing.

I started seeing improvements in my relationships with my students, and the relationships between the children. I started to experience small victories for each student academically. I started to realize that teaching in itself is a mission. I started to feel like I was making a difference.

Overall, I am so GRATEFUL for the challenging semester. Throughout every challenge there is something to learn.

Any-who… It would be impossible to share my full first year experience as a teacher in a blog post…. If you'd like to grab a cup of coffee I'd love to share or answer questions! As for now, I share my wishes for my students…

Wishes as a Teacher

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1. I wish I could save every child. 

Through this experience my heart has been broken and exposed to the reality of the young generation lives'. My students are only 6 and 7 years old and they know the harsh reality of life far too well. I wish I could save them from feeling hungry, hurt, or unloved. Some of things I hear my students say to one another or to myself breaks my heart. If I could put a magical orb around them all from the pain and the ugliness of the world I would! 

2. I wish they knew the amount of love that I have for each and everyone of them.

I found myself buying pencils, art supplies, and etc. out of my own pocket…something I knew that was going to happen when I became a teacher. However, when you find yourself knowing how much your students love Frozen, so you decide to buy the Frozen pencils that cost $1 more, you'll do it to just to see the smiles on their faces.

There is always that one student, who is naughty, and you have to tell them to move their clip down on the behavior chart…but you still find yourself being their biggest cheerleader to turn their day around.

Or just simply giving each student a hug… I wish my students knew when I said goodbye with high five or a hug that they knew I was proud of them, and that I look forward to see them the next day. I would completely crumble into a million little pieces if something awful happened to my students. My role in their life is more than a teacher…it is a role model, and another person who can nurture them. Unfortunately, not all students receive the love they need. I wish they knew the amount of love I poor on them daily, even when it's a rough day, or even if they refuse being loved by me.

3. I wish I could give students the confidence they deserve. 

One of the hardest things about teaching is giving students the motivation to learn when they have given up on themselves. How could a six year old know they are "dumb"?! Who puts that in their brain?  Quite honestly how could a six year old be dumb? They are STILL learning!!! I wish they knew that they could do anything they put their mind to. They CAN read, they CAN solve math problems.  I had a lot of students who would shut down in a specific subject just because someone told them they couldn't read, or they were teased on their answer in math. My students were so afraid to get the answers wrong, that they wouldn't try. It's hard to see the lack of motivation at such a young age. I know my students are all smarties in their own way!

4. I wish had all the patience in the world, for each student….no matter how hard the day is.

I'm not saying I do not have patience…but when you have 25 six year olds to take care of for 8 hours (Some days without a break)…. you get a little frazzled and your patience begins to grow weak (especially if you're not having a good day yourself). Some days I find myself thinking…was I too mean to them? I wish I had all the time in the world to fulfill their needs, answer all of their questions, and listen to all of their little stories. I wish I could listen to all tattle, because I know there is something about that tattle that is bugging them…even when we find ourselves as teachers saying, "Is it a tattle? If so, give them a "bug" and a "wish". Unfortunately we are all human, and we have stress of all the requirements it takes of being a teacher… and sometimes that makes our patience weak.

5. I wish they knew how unique they are.

As teachers, you can normally pick up a paper with no name and know which student it belongs to based off their handwriting, or what they are writing about. Yep, I know that "Bob" always writes his S's backwards no matter how often I remind him. Yep, I know this paper is "Sally's" because I saw a horse drawn on it, with the same purple crayon she uses on all of her drawings.

I know that when I pass out construction paper that so and so will demand to have the yellow paper, or a tantrum will go down in five seconds.

I know that "Billy-Bob” will always make me laugh with his silly comments and gestures.

And because of their unique quirks, they all have a special place in my heart.

6. I wish I were rich.

Of course teaching doesn't pay well… Honestly if you just gave me a penny for each time someone told me that, then I would be rich.

I don't want the money to buy a fancy new car or all the materialistic items (okay secretly I want a car, but I am not motivated by money…nor would I pick out a fancy car).

I would love to have the money to buy each my students items they needed. I have seen students come to school with stained and ripped uniforms because they can't afford to buy new clothes. Shoot! I just wish I had the money to buy them a stinkn' eraser or a huge pile of tissues!

 Money is tight as a teacher. I'm constantly looking for donations, or finding things to make with stuff I have to make a more successful learning environment.

I'd say over half of the money I earn, I put back into my classroom. I would be lying to you if I said I can successful walk through target without buying them something in the dollar section…. It's a trap! And if you say, "You can write it off on your taxes." Well let me tell you, you can all write off a couple hundred dollars worth…and if you're a teacher, you'd know a couple of hundred dollars doesn't get you much for 25 kiddos.

I just want my students to have all the resources of a successful learning environment!!!


7. I wish I could make everything "fun". 

No matter how hard I try, I can't make every lesson fun. With the state requirements, and the push to meet test scores… You don't always have the time to make a game on the content you're teaching.

I wish there wasn't this must pressure on scores in education. I get why we do it… we have to be accountable of our teaching… but overall, students would achieve more victories if they had fun learning the content, and they would want to learn.

I wish my students knew that I try to be a fun teacher when possible! Heck, I have embarrassed myself singing and dancing in and out of the classroom just to see them smile, and hear them laugh.

I want them to look forward to coming to school.

8. I wish I could help more.


I wish I could solve each student's weaknesses, and make it their strength. I wish I could say that I have a full class of high level readers and mathematicians… but that’s not real.

It's a challenge to teach a child how to read. Honestly, the English language doesn't make sense…

I wish I found a tool that worked for every child, but as educators we know that all students are all so different. There are methods out there that we never even experienced, seen, or heard of that could benefit a student…and sometimes it takes years to hear it through the grapevine.

If I could sit on my students' shoulders and sound out all the words to them, I would. I wish I could be by each of them as they solve a tricky word problem.

I wish I could find the root of the student's struggle right away, so they can be more successful.

9. I wish my students liked me as their teacher. 

I know it sounds silly and far-fetched. Some educators want their students to tremble in their seats with the sound of their name… I mean, that's awesome classroom management if you're into that. 

Of course I am stern and real with my kids. It's not always rainbows and butterflies in my class {most days aren't}. Sometimes I have a kid who has to move their clip to red by the end of the day… and they hate me for hours or the entire day because of that… and I hate that feeling for ruining someone's day. 

But honestly, I just want my students to respect me the way I respect them. I know, I know… I'm in the wrong profession for that. Teachers are most likely to put their feelings on the back burner, because it's all about the student's feelings and their success…. not me, and I get that.  But by defense, I'd love for my students to walk out of my class and think, "Miss Short is pretty cool". I would love for them to want to come to my class because they feel safe and supported. 

10. I wish my students knew I prayed for them. 

I pray for them to have a safe night, weekend, and summer. I pray that they do not struggle in home or school situations. I pray for a happy future for each and every one of them. 

As educators we are not allowed to bring religion into the field… it's a huge no-no! It's hard when I know for the fact I was given these students, because God knew we were going to grow from one another. 

Even though I am unable to confess my faith to my students, it has been the solid foundation of what I teach. I teach my students to love one another, be the good in the world, and know things will get better. 

In the beginning of the year I put a magnet on my class door that says," Never, never, never give up." Personally it was something to remind myself as I faced hard days. But my kids began to notice it and used it as a support system to one another. One of my favorite things a student said in my class was, "Remember we never give up in Miss Short's class, you can do it!".

I firmly believe we are in this world to support each other. When you begin to have a group of students who are being the good, just because you consistently teach them what a good person looks like… I think I served part of my mission on this earth. 

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I will miss my very first set of kiddos. It has been a roller coaster, but I am completely grateful for the ride! 

I wish the best of luck in their next school year! <3